Tuesday, February 28, 2012

On Being Human

While we were made a little lower than the angels and we are like the beasts that perish, there are things that are, as C.S. Lewis puts it, “forever ours, not theirs”. There may be back stories (a "holy conference") that angels only know but what about the story of grace? - Only tasted by the forgiven and redeemed!



On Being Human
C.S. Lewis,  Poems


Angelic minds, they say, by simple intelligence
Behold the Forms of nature. They discern
Unerringly the Archtypes, all the verities
Which mortals lack or indirectly learn.
Transparent in primordial truth, unvarying,
Pure Earthness and right Stonehood from their clear,
High eminence are seen; unveiled, the seminal
Huge Principles appear.

The Tree-ness of the tree they know-the meaning of
Arboreal life, how from earth's salty lap
The solar beam uplifts it; all the holiness
Enacted by leaves' fall and rising sap;

But never an angel knows the knife-edged severance
Of sun from shadow where the trees begin,
The blessed cool at every pore caressing us
-An angel has no skin.

They see the Form of Air; but mortals breathing it
Drink the whole summer down into the breast.
The lavish pinks, the field new-mown, the ravishing
Sea-smells, the wood-fire smoke that whispers Rest.
The tremor on the rippled pool of memory
That from each smell in widening circles goes,
The pleasure and the pang --can angels measure it?
An angel has no nose.

The nourishing of life, and how it flourishes
On death, and why, they utterly know; but not
The hill-born, earthy spring, the dark cold bilberries.
The ripe peach from the southern wall still hot
Full-bellied tankards foamy-topped, the delicate
Half-lyric lamb, a new loaf's billowy curves,
Nor porridge, nor the tingling taste of oranges.
—An angel has no nerves.

Far richer they! I know the senses' witchery
Guards us like air, from heavens too big to see;
Imminent death to man that barb'd sublimity
And dazzling edge of beauty unsheathed would be.
Yet here, within this tiny, charmed interior,
This parlour of the brain, their Maker shares
With living men some secrets in a privacy
Forever ours, not theirs. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

I Judge Books By Their Covers

I must admit – there are times when I pick books up purely for its aesthetic qualities - covert art, title design and its acid-free pages. Unfortunately, most Christian publishers like Word, Moody, Banner of Truth, IVP and Multnomah are not well-known for their brilliant book covers. I hope this will change after HarperCollins took over Nashville - based publisher Thomas Nelson. Their edition of C.S. Lewis' classics and favorites are all beautifully designed and perfect when arranged in a single row.


My C.S. Lewis collection holds a special place in my tiny bookshelf and I am determined to replace the Touchstone editions with HarperCollins


Nothing beats the Hardcourt design - A sure winner of  Best Spine of the Year Award!

This is my favorite John R.W. Stott book. Unfortunately, the cover is just plain ugly.
The old edition of Tozer's books are all uniformly designed -- with powerful typography.
Books with gold medals are always irresistible specially if it is placed on the spine.  
Well, you can’t judge a book by its cover, but people always do.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

A Scene From a Korean Movie


Korean films are always unique. Sometimes it has 3 endings, sometimes it's like you have only watch a single chapter. Their cinematography techniques will make you experience the movie -  we watch and suffer like they do and the score will make you seat until the credits end.














She knew she was standing
in the middle of the road
Confuse and teary
She finally decided to run uphill
She run hard while crying out loud
and collapsed
She sunk herself for a long time in that highway,
clenching her fists while the rustling wind
swept the fallen leaves.
For minutes I thought that it would not affect me,
but it did.

Monday, January 9, 2012

Pictures of Unfinished Things


I just caught The Book of Eli on HBO last night. The movie made me ashamed of the fact that I have not read the entire Bible yet. I have basically read all the books in the New Testament, picked my favorite Psalms and even retraced the missionary journeys of Paul. But all these I’ve done at my leisure and it’s all too easy to forget. I always get carried away by enthusiasm to read it straight through only to realize that I’ve not gone too far. 

The list of important books is long (Eccl. 12:12) and I’ve lost a lot of time in the last few years. Perhaps this would now be the time to try a one-year Bible-reading plan. It may sound artificial but as suggested by Dan Philips ─ any plan is better than no plan. 

Thursday, January 5, 2012

As the Ruin Falls

This is my favorite C.S. Lewis poem. Written in traditional form but it sounds like a free verse to me. The tone is similar to Wordsworth's "Surprised by Joy" but this one is with a fitting ending – hope and joy comes in at the last verse. Any anthology that does not include this is incomplete.


As the Ruin Falls

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through:
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love—a scholar’s parrot may talk Greek—
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.

Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.

For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains.

~C.S.Lewis, Poems, “As the Ruin Falls” (1st pub. 1964), pp. 109-110.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

25 Books


For my own part I tend to find the doctrinal books often more helpful in devotion than the devotional books, and I rather suspect that the same experience may await many others. I believe that many who find that “nothing happens” when they sit down, or kneel down, to a book of devotion, would find that the heart sings unbidden while they are working their way through a tough bit of theology with a pipe in their teeth and a pencil in their hand.    C.S. Lewis, Introduction to Athanasius’ On The Incarnation




















I saw this book the other day at National Book Store. I was disappointed after reading the blurb but I bought it anyway just to kill the “thrill of immediacy”.  As pointed by the editors, this book is not the list of the best Christian books ever but books from dead authors that “served as the best guides for living life with God”. Many of these books are considered “devotional classics” that I bet, except for Nouwen’s Prodigal are all available on-line for free. Obviously, the reader will likely not agree with the choices. Here’s the list in order:

1.  On the Incarnation  by St. Athanasius
2.  Confessions  by St. Augustine 
3.  The Sayings of the Desert Fathers
4.  The Rule of St. Benedict  by St. Benedict
5.  The Divine Comedy  by Dante Alighieri
6.  The Cloud of Unknowing  by Anonymous
7.  Revelations of Divine Love (Showings)  by Julian of Norwich
8.  The Imitation of Christ  by Thomas à Kempis
9.  The Philokalia
10.  Institutes of the Christian Religion  by John Calvin
11.  The Interior Castle  by St. Teresa of Avila
12.  Dark Night of the Soul  by St. John of the Cross
13.  Pensées  by Blaise Pascal
14.  The Pilgrim's Progress  by John Bunyan
15.  The Practice of the Presence of God  by Brother Lawrence
16.  A Serious Call to a Devout and Holy Life  by William Law
17.  The Way of a Pilgrim  by Unknown Author
18.  The Brothers Karamazov  by Fyodor Dostoevsky
19.  Orthodoxy  by G. K. Chesterton
20.  The Poetry of Gerard Manley Hopkins
21.  The Cost of Discipleship  by Dietrich Bonhoeffer
22.  A Testament of Devotion  by Thomas R. Kelly
23.  The Seven Storey Mountain  by Thomas Merton
24.  Mere Christianity  by C. S. Lewis
25.  The Return of the Prodigal Son  by Henri J. M. Nouwen

Interestingly, seven of these are in my sleek bookshelf including the surprising choices- The Brothers Karamazov and Hopkin’s collection of poems.  Added as an extra is a list of Top 9 contemporary authors which disappointed me the more:
  • 1.     Wendell Berry
  • 2.      Richard J. Foster
  • 3.      Anne Lamott
  • 4.      Brian McLaren
  • 5.      Eugene H. Peterson
  • 6.      John Stott
  • 7.      Walter Wangerin, Jr.
  • 8.      Dallas Willard
  • 9.      N.T. Wright


Lamott in Top 3?  I have read two of her non-fiction works. Putting her even in Top 100 is a lousy choice. 

Saturday, December 24, 2011

A DONKEY'S DELIGHT


Taught, oh how late! In anguish, the response
I might have made with exultation once.
C.S. Lewis, OLD POETS REMEMBERED

Hannah, my 3-year old daughter, opening the box for me




















Tadaaaan!!!
















I've been hunting for this book (locally) in vain and so when my loving wife asked me what I wanted for Christmas I said, “A C.S. Lewis book.” Amazon delivered it just in time.

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Monster Monster





















Do you know what you are?
Do you know what you are?



...Nothing ever changes, nothing ever changes
By itself
-Jars of Clay, Good Monsters

So foolish, and ignorant: I am before thee [as] was a monster.
-Psalm 73:22 

And because I too, hate liberal-humanism
I decided to read Baudelaire.
But I got offended by the very first poem:
‘You, hypocrite reader, resembling me, my brother’
Mon semblable, Mon frère
- It almost smothered me even before I was done.

The ease came, no doubt, 
after my three year old daughter
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- The distorted parts rightly joined together.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Untitled

In dreams the fool is free from scorning voices.
Grey-headed whores are virgin again.
Out of the past dream brings long-buried choices,
All in a moment snaps the tenfold chain
That life took years in forging. There the stain
Of oldest sins—how do the good words go?—
Though they were scarlet, shall be white as snow.
C.S. LEWIS, Narrative Poems

In his dream he was driving
in a column of verses.
Running neatly in parallel
like a mist in a windowpane.
Trying not to be swept away
by heavy curls
or the smell of tamarinds
from a distant.
Or the longing
that makes the flowers bloom
and the valleys more deep
out of season.

No one to talk to the road’s end
he lost the last battle with himself.
Utterly trapped and without hope
he wished he was dead.

As a dream when one awakes,
So, Lord, when You awake,
You shall despise their image.
Ps 73:20

Friday, April 22, 2011

Torrens Voluptatis

Torrens Voluptatis

For God is not merely mending, not simply
restoring a status quo. Redeemed humanity
is to be something more glorious than any
unfallen race now is (if at this moment  the night sky
conceals any such)…those who have never fallen will
thus bless Adam’s fall.    – C.S. Lewis, Miracles
















The angry thorns
created an applauding blood
to drip in Your face

The nails
that made Your ankle crossed the other
and arms raised down
are my unbendable links to You

The soldier’s spear
made sure Your death becomes mine

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Flowers of Chateau

It’s Mid-April
But the flowers bloom like May
A million raindrops will soon strip the blossom
Frame it now or just ignore and walk by












Saturday, April 9, 2011

For Samantha Jin (on her first birthday)

















A birthday balloon flew over the Bluewave
as Ticko played the party blower
Toot sweets
Toot sweets

 You’re too little for a wish
and your table is crowded
and so we made one for you
A blessed April day!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

In the Train (Part 2)

A man with a punk hair
is reading his pocket Bible
I tried to “read” from inches away 
while a full breast is pressed
against my side.

The insinuating arrows
Remind me of a fire-hot verse:

The sperm of our long woes,
our large disgrace.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

In the Train (Part 1)













Today I encountered a young preacher
he carries no basket or envelope
Just a pocket Bible and an Invitation
He expounded the third chapter of John
like a man digging a Roman Gravemound
 while others look away
and I pretend reading  a book of poem.

The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it,
but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes…

I think we should thank preachers
who moves
from car to car
from train to train
 more than poets
that just sit on pages. 

Saturday, March 19, 2011

The Big One











In terms of attention and news coverage, none will match the earthquake that hit Japan compared to Haiti and Christchurch, not even the unfolding political events in the Middle East. Perhaps because of the magnitude that culminated in the catastrophic destruction of a nuclear station and surprisingly a stronger yen. Again one will wonder how a secular nation will face such triad of catastrophe knowing that this is not yet the ‘Big One”. One of the things that hits visitors to Japan is that they are not religious (whatever form it is) though in times of tragedy and like many Catholics, their religiosity tends to go up. More so when people die in groups of hundreds which is an indication of our helplessness. People die not because “they are worse than everybody else” (Luke 13:4) but because death is inevitable. When seawalls and thick walls fail, may we all run to ‘The Real Big One’ for mercy.